My brain is different

My brain cells and brain chemistry is different than many.  It's not my fault, I didn't cause it.  It's just the way my brain is.  I have learned to 'manage' it, and how to live with it and TRY to function normally.    First,  I had to come to a place where I could ACCEPT it.  I've tried to deny it, cover it up,  and act normal.  (but only for a limited time.)   Once I accepted it, and say out loud the words,  "I'm bipolar"  than was I able to manage it,  and learn more about it, and use medication for it.  There is no cure for it.  I will be bipolar until I die.  I will have to be under a doctors care for the rest of my life just like a diabetic.   It has been an embarrassing and hard illness to accept.   I kept thinking I was 'tough enough' to control it myself.  Really that's stupid.  I can't control it myself, anymore than a heart patient can control her heartbeat by herself.  I need help medically to manage my illness.   I'm grateful that I was finally able to accept my illness and still be the wonderful person I am.  I still am embarrassed about it sometimes, but at least I'm managing.  So there,  I wrote it down for anyone to see.  Now do you look at me different than before?  Now do you think I'm crazy?  Now do you think you're better than me, because you don't have a brain disorder, an illness?  Now will you talk behind my back, or will you talk to me, and ask me questions so you can better understand?     "How do you like me now?"