Tuesday, October 11, 2011

It's just lunch

I have no control over anything.  
I'm trying to manage and maintain, as best I can.

       I'm having a hard time, making small decisions.  Big decisions seem easier.
 
 Let's see??  I think I will move to North Carolina.     Packed.

Should I have a second surgery on my neck?     No.  Manage the pain with an epidural & pain specialist for 1 year.

Should I try to save a 10 year relationship?     No. 

Is there anything that I can do to be able to have contact with David?  No.  I'm doing everything I can.

So,   what's for dinner?   don't know-don't care

Go have lunch with a friend tomorrow?   too complicated.  then I have to decide, what time? where? am I even hungry?  how much $ is that gonna cost me?  How much $ is in my pocket?  If I stay in, I bet I can save $20.  $20 is a half tank of gas, a half tank a gas is 150 miles closer to North Carolina.
  see how my mind can just take off & start running and heading for an anxiety attack over a 'burger and fries, with a friend?

2 comments:

Pedaling said...

well, looks like you got the big decisions made.

sweet older sister said...

What is the purpose of lunch with a friend? If it is to just eat, then all those things you mentioned must be considered.

But if it is for upbuilding association, then stuff yourself at home with food/bread/popcorn before you go and then get a small drink and enjoy the conversation.